Phew, what a ride the last few months have been, not much time for dating given what's been going on.
I was transferred in my job to a large international firm with thousands of employees (we had forty odd) and although the job wasn't as involved as my previous role I thought I would stick with it and do my best as maybe it would lead to better things.
It didn't, I didn't (and still don't) understand how the company works, I don't understand their processes, if you ask someone a question about what you should be doing they instantly send you to someone else, like calling the bank helpline when they pass you from department to department without answering your query.
In the first few months I tried really hard to keep on top of things, I worked evenings and weekends for no pay but I still didn't seem to be doing all the things they wanted me to.
I lost heart, I went home in tears one night, I became distant from my family, I haven't seen Dic and Dom for months. Depression I think they call it.
I started making very silly mistakes and the more I made the worse it got, my hands would shake at my desk and I felt sick constantly.
So came the inevitable conversation about my leaving. I chose to resign and started search for a job in earnest, I was pleased to be going but at the same time the single household cannot survive without an income, I was shitting myself.
A month went by an I hadn't been invited to one single interview, then, when searching on twitter I came across the role of office manager for a charitable organisation, and it sounded just like the old job I had previously.
After I had sent off my application I had the "rejection wait" but they called me and invited me for an interview.
I felt the interview went well but it was really hard to tell what they thought of me, but then the next day the phone rang.
They offered me the role, just like that, I was so shocked I cried. After months of beating myself up for not being the type of person who could work in the big impersonal international firm I had found what I was looking for.
Incidentally those big firm types with a (sterling) silver spoon in their mouths and a stick up their behinds are the kind of people I usually cross the road to avoid so I am not sure why I was so concerned about fitting in, I was never going to.
I start my new role in a couple of weeks and am so excited about it! It's a new chapter in gal singles life.
Also after the interview I went to Camden and met sister single for lunch, then strolled around for the afternoon in the sunshine. By the time sister single finished work we decided to get a few beers and go on the musical boat tour which takes you up to london zoo and back.
Whilst aboard we got talking to two brothers, one of which I got on very well with and it resulted in a date, unlike my interview he didn't get the job but more of that to follow...
Until next time
Love
SG
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